Monday, February 21, 2005
awash in unbidden memories, a stream of consciousness report.
head games:
i'm tired of the political disinformation over social security. time to dig up some old books and do some reading. here's one from 1968...
flashback - 60's:
wow, were we ever that idealistic ? the heart of the civil rights movement, johnson's great society, the afterglow of fdr's new deal...
[head shake]
i used to do technical actuarial work in the pension consulting industry, i should be able to figure some of this shit out for myself.
now let's see, where was i...
flashback - mid 80's - mid 90's:
whoa - opening up some old on-the-job memories here. downtown detroit, southfield, suits, politics... my, how things have changed. about me, the world... mostly me. i think.
gee, what's on tv? oh, look, an old saturday night live episode...
flashback - january, 1980:
wandering in the halls of wayne state u. and some personal crisis. make that plural. hey, cool music. geeez...
time to sleep.
[zzzzzzz]
so, what's on tv tonight ? oh, look - the first five years of saturday night live ...
flashback - mid to late 70's:
high school, drama club, carter, nixon, vietnam, pre-reagan years... parties....
[caught in the ol' wayback machine, and accelerating]
on to more practical matters...
weirdest thing. having some problems with connectivity after playing around with the web server and dns. none of the aol stuff can see out. imaybe i 'm thinking i'll have to reinstall things, what do i need to backup ? they sure hide this shit good. ok, make the copies, and get generally prepared in case shit hits the fan. let's try xp's system restore first, hitting the latest checkpoint. ok, and i should reboot everything else as well, just in case bad stuff is cached in the dns or router or whatever. don't fix what ain't broke, eh ?
everything restarted? ok, last chance, how's aol? hey! it works! not only that, but a couple of aol communicator related services i thought were irretrievable lost last year are now working! like my news ticker, and the radio. don't know what happened, but as long as it works, i ain't questioning.
cool. time to look around. hey, what's that ? an all led zeppelin channel - !
flashback mid 70's:
holy crap, i get a contact buzz just listening to that stuff. zoning right outa here... basement work outs, psychedelic emotions.
and defense mechanisms kicking in and kicking me out of the machine.
whew.
just a stream of consciuousness. more like a cataract.