Monday, February 14, 2005
valentines objections
do the sports bars go empty on valentines day ?
i always dreaded that holiday. it takes planning, and i never planned. it also takes a sort of hypocrisy where there's an expectation of romance. romance to me was always spontaneity, acts of unexpected kindness and passion.
i always sweated it out, whenever i was dating someone, because i knew it wasn't me. hell, i didn't like celebrating any holiday, much less one that was so contrary to my personality. do it for her ? yeah, she loves it when i fake it. that's a gift ? i don't think so.
but i understand that most people are not like me. some people get this, little by little, but never as much as when expectations are set in such high contrast.
so it didn't matter that i treated girfriends as if almost any time we were out was romantic, dinners, walks, movies, trips, whatever spontaneous passion arose. if i blew v-d, that was it.
guess i'm hardly marriage material ;-) no shit, eh ? “no planning” and “weddings” just goes so well together, dontcha think ?
which brings up a whole lot of other internal psychodrivel for me to ponder. i won't burden anyone with that. for now ;-)